...DEAR MAMA...pleeease COME BACK!!!

Dear Mama....please don't be mad at your 1st born. I'm just trying to weather the storm. And it's pouring...

 

 Good morning and Happy Mother's Day to all the motherly figures in the world!

 

So last year on this holiday...I was sooooo in my feelings I couldn't think straight. Usually when this happens I try to create art, it helps me channel my energy & not be consumed by my emotions. This video was the end result.

Today I'm gonna simply type out the words to this song that came from the heart, hopefully I'll feel a little better once done. Right now I'm in my feelings all over again, and appreciating all the women who've sacrificed & struggled to be the best mothers they could be in their loved ones lives. It's not always about being a mother to your own children...our women in this world all share the same role in helping shape not only our youth, but also our people in general. Many of us tend to lose sight of how true this is - I, for one, am a living breathing example of that. Happy Mother's Day to ALL the motherly figures in the world. We appreciate you.

 

And a very special Happy Mother's Day to the powerful women who actually do have children & continue to put them 1st. Whether they show it or not...they love you more than life itself, and those hugs today really do come from the heart!!!

"Why I Wrote This Song"

(Verse 1)

[Rydah Tay]
Sometimes I wonder & ask God if I'm a blessing or a curse...
Is this life worth living or was I a shady birth???
Deep in my heart where it hurts - grew up without my MOTHER
That's why my heart so cold, you can't tell me NOTHING...
So Granny did her best trying to raise me but I ain't listen....
I mean I listened, just not the part when she said don't live by the pistol...
But Granny really did her best - that's why I miss her dearly...
My twin cousin B - I know that nigga can feel me
Cuz outta all the grandkids, she had me & him the most...
My cousin chose to stay in school & I chose selling dope....

Now that my Granny passed away, we feeling like we got no hope
Still can't nothing come between us...cuz we that damn close...

The pain I'm feeling all inside man - it really aint no joke...

As I grew older, 1 thing I realized - you gotta cherish ya folks...

 Gotta sticc together as family...let nothing bring that apart!

For real - we gotta sticc together - LET NOTHING BRING THAT APART!!!!

Family barely getting along, now Granny turning in her grave...

Staring down from Heaven like that ain't the way we was raised...

What hurts me more than anything, before she passed away....

...I was in the county jail & didn't get to see her face...


(Chorus)

[Rydah Tay]

Shit got hard after the death of our mother

I remember her telling us one day that all we gon have is each other...

Growing up in the struggle was just me & my brother

Cuzz after what I tell you next - you can't tell me nothing!!!

Now that my Granny passed away, where the fucc do I turn???

Daddy ain't there, my family barely getting along...

So I hit the blocc, got on my own...to the streets is where I turned...

But it's a lot I had to learn...reason why I wrote this song...


(Verse 2)

[HoLLyRod]

They say nobody really miss ya till ya dead or ya gone....

Look at us now Ma, ya kids on a song...it's been way too long...

And we grown. I still feel it in my heart tho

I never meant to let you down, shit just fell apart but oh -

It mighta been that way from the start...

See we was craKC babies...pushing welfare carts....

Ma I swear I kept my word - I followed in ya steps....

But what's a college boy from the hood to do next?

My sister in the 'jects still...lil bro clutching steel...

And I'm still cheKC to cheKC - what's the deal?

They dealt...false hopes of wealth...

The ones who really can help, they keep the secrets to self

And so we lost!! Niggaz get crossed in between what's right...

Now I'm doing shit I said I never would at night...

But Mama listen...please don't be mad at ya 1st born...

I'm just tryna weather the storm...and it's pouring...

 

(Chorus)

[Rydah Tay]

Shit got hard after the death of our mother

I remember her telling us one day that all we gon have is each other...

Growing up in the struggle was just me & my brother

Cuzz after what I tell you next - you can't tell me nothing!!!

Now that my Granny passed away, where the fucc do I turn???

Daddy ain't there, my family barely getting along...

So I hit the blocc, got on my own...to the streets is where I turned...

But it's a lot I had to learn...reason why I wrote this song...


(Verse 3)

[Rydah Tay]

Had a whole lot on my mind...do I blame the ones who had me???

Cuz Mama been dead for years, so I'm thinking where is Daddy?

He ain't never play his part, he wasn't no father, didn't wanna be bothered

...with his only fuccin daughter and that there is his problem...

Me & my cousins, we stayed close...even tho our parents was on some other shit...

Me, Lloyd, and B Hen was always off into some other shit...

HoLLyRod, Dell, can't forget my nigga Filth...

J***, Rashida, and Clemisha - those the folks that I grew up with...

The hard way I had to learn, the life I live I know it's wrong...

My name's known, lot on my dome, bro tell em why I wrote this song...

 

[HoLLyRod]

See when you grow up in the gutter...all ya got is each other....

Looking baKC on it now - I coulda been a better brother...

Felt the pressure on my shoulders...

We gotta make it out the hood before it's over...

By the grace of GOD...any means necessary...

I was on a mission to come baKC for my people when I was done with lessons every

...night I think about my life...

And where I would be now if I went left instead of right...

Ya daughter was a soldier...HoLLy had the brains...

But that was just a front cuz we one and the same...

That's why we on the beat like twins...spitting pain within...

Yeah life goes on, so we in it til the end...ya dig??

Ah...ah............ya dig???

......................................Yeah..

 

(Chorus)

[Rydah Tay]

Shit got hard after the death of our mother

I remember her telling us one day that all we gon have is each other...

Growing up in the struggle was just me & my brother

Cuzz after what I tell you next - you can't tell me nothing!!!

Now that my Granny passed away, where the fucc do I turn???

Daddy ain't there, my family barely getting along...

So I hit the blocc, got on my own...to the streets is where I turned...

But it's a lot I had to learn...reason why I wrote this song...

 

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As always, thanks for reading & everyone have a wonderful week! I promise I'll get the rest of the latest story from #TheArtOfCheatingEpisodes posted this week, it's been a rough couple of weeks but I'm working! Thanks for being patient! Enjoy!!

 

 - HoLLy

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